Self-Esteem

Okay, one thing no one knows about me is that my biggest dream is to become a model. I just don't have the physical looks for it. I am so judgemental of myself and EVERYONE around me judges me outwardly sooooo much that I have the most run-down self-esteem of anyone I know. We are bombarded with pictures of thin, beautiful women and muscular men everyday. Now, if you have a very instable self-esteem, I suggest you stop reading now, because if you don't, you're going to be hurt. In my eyes, not everyones beautiful, and no matter who says "Everyone is beautiful" or "Beauty is skin deep" or "Curvy is beautiful", the are still judging you when they see you and they know what you actually look like. We shouldn't be feeding kids these lies that they are pretty and they can be whoever they want to be. It doesn't happen. I don't think you understand that there are some people who aren't good looking what-so-ever, myself included. And those people stand in front of a mirror all day and point out everyones flaws. It hurts. SO, the point is, to see your opinions on self esteem and is everyone beautiful? Is beauty only skin-deep?